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So I was so scared of what could be hidden underneath the rocks

But I am still among friends, so I am not scared of anything

7/3/07 12:02 am

Konstantine

I can’t imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
I don’t understand all the things you’ve seen
But I’m slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It’s always you
In my big dreams
.
And you tell me, that its over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
And you’re restless
And I’m naked
You gotta get out, you can’t stand to see me shaking, no
would You let me go
I didn’t think so
.
And you don’t wanna be here in the future
So you say the presents just a pleasant interruption to the past
And you don’t wanna look much closer
Cuz you’re afraid to find out all this hope, you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
And it did
Because of me
And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you’re alone
And I’m sleeping in your living room
but We don’t have much room
To live
.
I had these dreams
In them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rock star
And there was hope in me that I could take you there
But damnit your so young
Well I don’t think I care
And if I hurt you
Then I’m sorry
Please don’t think that this was easy
And then you’d bring me home
Cuz we both know what it’s like to be alone
And I’m dreaming in your living room
but We don’t have much room
To live
.
And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn’t she look good
Standing in her underwear
And I was thinking
What I was thinking
We’ve been drinking and it doesn’t get me anywhere
.
My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do was touch her long blonde hair
And I’ve been thinking
It hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no
.
This is because I can spell confusion with a K and I can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
And why I had to try it
It’s to the Jimmy Eat World
And those nights in my car
When the first star you see may not be a star
I’m not your star
Isn’t that what you said
What you thought this song meant
.
And if this is what it takes just to lie with my mistakes
And live with what I did to you
And All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock at 11:11
Now you wanna talk
It’s not hard to dream, you’ll always be my Konstantine
My konstantine
They'll never hurt you like I do
No they’ll never hurt you like I do
No, no, no no no no no no

.
This is to a girl who got into my head with all the pretty things she did
and hey you know You keep me up in bed,
This is to a girl who got into my head with all these fucked up things i did
Hey, maybe, baby you could keep me up in bed
.
My konstantine
You spin around me like you dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said, did you know a missed you?
Did you know I miss you?
I miss you
.
And then you bring me home
And we go to sleep, but this time not alone no no
And you’ll kiss me in your living room oh no
I know you miss me in your living room
Cuz these nights I think that maybe that I miss you in my living room
but we don’t have much room
I said does anybody need that room?
Cuz we all need a little more room
To live
My konstantine

6/13/07 03:56 pm - meme thingy from becca

4/17/07 09:53 pm

Ok, what the hell is it with people and when something bad happens in the nation or world they have to make a damn statement and start a group or make some kind of slogan or something to attach to their car that says to remember the 22 students who died at Virginia Tech, or Never forget September 11.

September 11 is the new pearl harbor. and having one of those damn little bow things on your car is going to make any difference what so ever. people will remember it i guarantee you....people still remember columbine even though there were no groups on facebook to remember those students and there weren't any "we'll never forget 4/20/99" bumper stickers.

and for fucks sake, if we made bumper stickers and facebook groups to remember every time 20+ people got shot and lost their lives in one day or event, we'd be making them like every other day because of the war in Iraq and the soldiers dying their. What makes the loss of their life any different than the loss of the lives of those Virginia Tech Students.

people, we need to live the moment when it happens, acknowledge it and move on. Hell, i'm sure in a few months you'll all have forgotten what happened at VT, and why you started a facebook group to remember some students that you have absolutely no attachment to.

If any of this pisses and of you off, I'm fine with it. E-mail me a comment or something. my address is listed on my account.

12/28/06 01:53 pm - confessions of a not so teenage drama year

In 2006, did you...

fall in love with someone that was just a friend?: was already in love
fall in love at all?: see q 1
lose any friends?: I've grown apart from old friends
make any new friends?: yes
make any new enemies?: nien
develop any new hobbies?: cross country skiing and watching lotr
get older?: one would hope
do anything you regret?: it happens
go to any parties?: not really
accomplish anything?: got in to APU
make much money?: i made money, not a lot, but it is again of money
attend a wedding?: nope
attend a funeral?: thank god no
get any new family members?: cousins new baby, born sometime in december
move away?: yuppers
gain any new perspectives?: ?
get into a verbal fight?: not that i really recall
get into a physical fight?: i killed a lot of people on halo 2
attend any sporting events?: went to a few hockey games last spring
get arrested?: nope
wreck your car?: dont have a car to wreck
get a new car?: see above
make any big purchases?: tuition, new backpack, lots of book, ps2 and gamecube
get kicked out of a store, restaurant or any other kind of business?: not that i know of
get fired from a job?: quit one
get offered a job?: yes
get a raise at a job?: twould have been nice
learn anything?: what kind of question is that? of course i did
dump your bf/gf?: nope
get dumped by your bf/gf?: nope
develop any new health problems?: fucking morning/nighttime lactose intolerance
change as a person?: i could have
get any new piercings?:
get any new tattoos?:
attend a concert?: Jars of Clay at the Palmer State Fair and a Civic Orchestra Concert. We dont have much of a music scene up here.
crowd surf?: not my thing
travel out of state?: Went back home to Minnesota and to California
read any books?: Read a lot for school and started lotr
travel out of the country?: if living in alaska counts
spend much money?: 40k in debt by the end of spring semester count?
download any music?: if i had internet
try out any new looks?: died my hair black and am growing it out
sign up for a myspace?: dont have one thank god
sign up for a facebook?: have one
eat a food that you had never eaten before?: king crab legs
go golfing?: god no, but mini golfing is awesome
go bowling?: like every tuesday
go to many parties?: again, no
start to resent something or someone that you used to like?: yeah

In 2006, how many....
different places did you work?: 2
times did you go out drinking?: somewhere around 4
times did you smoke marijuana?: none
drugs did you take?: some for colds, some for strep throat, and some for lactose intolerance
times did you have health problems?: 3
times did you go to the movies?: lots
concerts did you attend? two
people did you make out with?: one
people did you have sex with?: one
people tried to have sex with you?: one that i know of
times did you get your ass kicked?: none
crushes did you have?: one
times did you attend church?: once, and thats cause my parents made me
bad habits did you pick up?: does having an occasion smoke count?
"rough nights" did you have?: a few

In 2006, what was?
your favorite day of the year?: nov 18
your favorite band?: too many to list, but if had to pick one, would be cartel
your least favorite day of the year?: i dunno
your favorite movie?: casino royal
your favorite song of the year?: ransom
the most expensive thing you stole?: i dunno
the biggest event you attended?: Alaska state fair
something that didn't change at all this year?: my living in Alaska
your favorite holiday?: christmas

Misc. questions about 2006 A.D.
were you in a hospital this year?: nien
were you in an ambulance this year?: nope
did you make any big confessions in '06?: not that i recall
embarrassed about anything you did this year?: it happens
what's the best thing to happen to you this year?: girl
did you meet anyone that you could see yourself marrying: yuppers
did anyone you have no feelings for confess to having feelings for you?: nien
did you vote this year?: twice
did you bring sexy back this year?: huh?
was 2006 a great year, an average year or a bad year?: twas an okey dokey year
what goals did you set for 2007?: to go to COA

4/16/06 11:10 pm - Stealing From [info]akaneko

A lot has been said about how to prevent rape.
Women should learn self-defense.
Women should lock themselves in their houses after dark.
Women shouldn't have long hair and women shouldn't wear short skirts.
Women shouldn't leave drinks unattended. Fuck, they shouldn't dare to get drunk at all.

How about:

1.)If a woman is drunk, don't rape her.
2.)If a woman is walking alone at night, don't rape her.
3.)If a women is drugged and unconscious, don't rape her.
4.)If a woman is wearing a short skirt, don't rape her.
5.)If a woman is jogging in a park at 5 a.m., don't rape her.
6.)If a woman looks like your ex-girlfriend you're still hung up on, don't rape her.
7.)If a woman is asleep in her bed, don't rape her.
8.)If a woman is asleep in your bed, don't rape her.
9.)If a woman is doing her laundry, don't rape her.
10.)If a woman is in a coma, don't rape her.
11.)If a woman changes her mind in the middle of or about a particular activity, don't rape her.
12.)If a woman has repeatedly refused a certain activity, don't rape her.
13.)If a woman is not yet a woman, but a child, don't rape her.
14.)If your girlfriend or wife is not in the mood, don't rape her.
15.)If your step-daughter is watching TV, don't rape her.
16.)If you break into a house and find a woman there, don't rape her.
17.)If your friend thinks it's okay to rape someone, tell him it's not, and that he's not your friend.
18.)If your "friend" tells you he raped someone, report him to the police.
19.)If your frat-brother or another guy at the party tells you there's an unconscious woman upstairs and it's your turn, don't rape her, call the police and report him as a rapist.
20.)Tell your sons, god-sons, nephews, grandsons, and sons of friends that it's not okay to rape someone.

***Don't just tell your women friends how to be safe and avoid rape.***Don't imply that she could have avoided it if she'd only done/not done x,y or z.***Don't imply that it's in any way her fault.***Don't let silence imply agreement when someone tells you he "got some" with the drunk girl.***Don't perpetuate a culture that tells you that you have no control over or responsibility for your actions.*** You can, too, help yourself.***


If you agree, repost it. It's that important.

"We blame her for being there
We're all here.
We're all guilty."

4/1/06 10:29 pm - The Ransom


He softly told her everything.
he never knew you didn't care.
break his heart again.
smile and prepare for all the words he screams.
give him a reason - anything but silence or the truth.
He'll Hate you now.
Remember how he held you for all those lonely nights
you know you shared
and remember how you never cared about anything he said.
well now he's dead to you so bury him instead.
Word's out I'm not the man I used to be.
you knew it all along that I felt this way.
so I put in this song.
tear me apart for pouring out my heart.
you know it wouldn't phase you in the least.
I hate you now.
remember how I held you for all the lonely nights
you know we shared
and remember how you never cared about anything I said
and now I'm dead to you.
so bury me instead.
So here's the one about every heart you stole.
and you're so sure that you're not a thief at all.
I'm the one who's stealing you and this ransom's overdue.
everything that's in me says that i hate you now.

3/26/06 03:55 pm - Check this out...

Say Hi to Joe Day (the national holiday)

3/6/06 11:45 pm - Sad day in Minnesota...and for all Minnesotans around the world

Hall of Famer Kirby Puckett dies at 45

MINNEAPOLIS -- Kirby Puckett, the bubbly, barrel-shaped Hall of Famer who carried the Minnesota Twins to two World Series titles before his career was cut short by glaucoma, died Monday after a stroke. He was 45.

Puckett, whose weight gain in recent years concerned those close to him, was stricken early Sunday at his Arizona home. He died at St. Joseph's Hospital and Medical Center in Phoenix.

"He was a Hall of Famer in every sense of the term," commissioner Bud Selig said. "He played his entire career with the Twins and was an icon in Minnesota. But he was revered throughout the country and will be remembered wherever the game is played. Kirby was taken from us much too soon -- and too quickly."

Puckett was the second-youngest person to die already a member of the Hall of Fame, Hall spokesman Jeff Idelson said. Only Lou Gehrig, at 37, was younger.

Kirby Puckett is a Minnesota icon. (AP)
Puckett led the Twins to championships in 1987 and 1991. He broke into the majors in 1984 and had a career batting average of .318. Glaucoma left the six-time Gold Glove center fielder and 10-time All-Star with no choice but to retire after the 1995 season when he went blind in his right eye.

"I wore one uniform in my career and I'm proud to say that," Puckett once said. "As a kid growing up in Chicago, people thought I'd never do anything. I've always tried to play the game the right way. I thought I did pretty good with the talent that I have."

He was elected to the Hall of Fame on his first try in 2001, and his plaque praised his "ever-present smile and infectious exuberance." Yet, out of the game, the 5-foot-8 Puckett let himself fall out of shape.

"It's a tough thing to see a guy go through something like that and come to this extent," former teammate Kent Hrbek said.

"That's what really hurt him bad, when he was forced out of the game," he said. "I don't know if he ever recovered from it."

Asked what he would remember the most from their playing days, Hrbek quickly answered, "Just his smile, his laughter and his love for the game."

Puckett had been in intensive care since having surgery at another hospital. His family, friends and former teammates gathered Monday at St. Joseph's. He was given last rites and died in the afternoon, hospital spokeswoman Kimberly Lodge said.

Puckett wanted his organs to be donated. In a statement, his family and friends thanked his fans for their thoughts and prayers.

"It's tough to take," Twins general manager Terry Ryan said from the team's spring training camp in Fort Myers, Fla. "He had some faults, we knew that, but when all was said and done he would treat you as well as he would anyone else. No matter who you were.

"When you're around him, he makes you feel pretty good about yourself. He can make you laugh. He can do a lot of things that can light up a room. He's a beauty," he said.

A makeshift memorial began to form Monday night outside the Metrodome, with a handful of bouquets laid on the sidewalk.

"This is a sad day for the Minnesota Twins, Major League Baseball and baseball fans everywhere," Twins owner Carl Pohlad said.

Puckett's signature performance came in Game 6 of the 1991 World Series against Atlanta. After telling anyone who would listen before the game that he would lead the Twins to victory that night at the Metrodome, he made a leaping catch against the fence and then hit a game-ending homer in the 11th inning to force a seventh game.

The next night, Minnesota's Jack Morris went all 10 innings to outlast John Smoltz and pitch the Twins to a 1-0 win for their second championship in five years.

"If we had to lose and if one person basically was the reason -- you never want to lose -- but you didn't mind it being Kirby Puckett. When he made the catch and when he hit the home run you could tell the whole thing had turned," Smoltz said.

"His name just seemed to be synonymous with being a superstar," the Braves' pitcher said. "It's not supposed to happen like this."

Hall of Fame catcher Carlton Fisk echoed Smoltz's sentiment.

"There was no player I enjoyed playing against more than Kirby. He brought such joy to the game. He elevated the play of everyone around him," Fisk said in a statement to the Hall.

Puckett's birth date was frequently listed as March 14, 1961, but recent research by the Hall of Fame indicated he was born a year earlier.

Perhaps the most popular athlete ever to play in Minnesota, Puckett was a guest coach at Twins spring training camp in 1996, but hadn't worked for the team since 2002. He kept a low profile since being cleared of assault charges in 2003, when he was accused of groping a woman at a suburban Twin Cities restaurant.

The youngest of nine children born into poverty in a Chicago housing project, Puckett was drafted by the Twins in 1982 and became a regular just two years later. He recorded four hits in his first major league start and finished with 2,304 in only 12 seasons.

Though his power numbers, 207 home runs and 1,085 RBI, weren't exceptional, Puckett won an AL batting title in 1989 and was considered one of the best all-around players of his era. His esteem and enthusiasm for the game factored into his Hall of Fame election as much as his statistics and championship rings.

He made his mark on baseball's biggest stage, leading heavy underdog Minnesota to a seven-game victory over St. Louis in 1987 and then doing the same against Atlanta in one of the most thrilling Series in history.

The Twins returned to the Metrodome that year after losing 14-5 in Game 5, needing to win two in a row to get the trophy. Puckett famously walked into the clubhouse hours before Game 6, cajoling his teammates to jump on his back and let him carry them to victory.

Sure enough, after robbing Ron Gant of an extra-base hit with a leaping catch against the wall in the third inning, Puckett homered off Charlie Leibrandt to send the Series to Game 7.

"There are a lot of great players in this game, but only one Kirby," pitcher Rick Aguilera said when Puckett announced his retirement. "It was his character that meant more to his teammates. He brought a great feeling to the clubhouse, the plane, everywhere."

Puckett's best year was 1988, when he batted .356 with 24 home runs, 42 doubles and 121 RBI. A contact hitter and stolen base threat in the minors who hit a total of four homers in his first two major league seasons, Puckett developed a power stroke in 1986 and went deep a career-best 31 times.

He became a fixture in the third spot in Minnesota's lineup, a free-swinging outfielder with a strong arm and a flair for nifty catches despite his 220-pound frame that made him look more like a fullback. The man known simply as "Puck" was immensely popular. Fans loved his style, especially the high leg kick he used as he prepared to swing. Public address announcer Bob Casey, who became a close friend, introduced him with vigor before every at-bat, "KIR-beeeeeeeeee PUCK-it."

As free agency and expansion turned over rosters more frequently in the 1990s, Puckett was one of the rare stars who never switched teams.

Hit by a pitch that broke his jaw on his last at-bat of the 1995 season, Puckett woke up one morning the following spring and couldn't see out of his right eye. It was eventually diagnosed as glaucoma, forcing him to call it quits that July.

He received baseball's Roberto Clemente Man of the Year Award for community service that year, and the Twins -- trying to boost sagging attendance during some lean seasons in the late 1990s -- frequently turned to Puckett-related promotions. He had a spot in the front office and sometimes made stops at the state Capitol to help stump for a new stadium.

Though he steadfastly refused to speak pessimistically about the premature end to his career, Puckett's personal life began to deteriorate after that. Shortly after his induction to Cooperstown, his then-wife, Tonya, accused him of threatening to kill her during an argument -- he denied it -- and described to police a history of violence and infidelity. In 2003, he was cleared of all charges from an alleged sexual assault of a woman at a suburban Twin Cities restaurant.

He kept a low profile after the trial and eventually moved to Arizona. The Twins kept trying to re-establish a connection and get him to come to spring training again as a guest instructor.

Puckett, who was divorced, is survived by his children, Catherine and Kirby Jr.

1/29/06 08:46 pm - Maybe shake a few hands while she's there and tell them thank you sir for taking my boy




Two weeks from Twenty
Jimmy wasn't really popular
He had a couple of friends back home
And sooner or later they're all getting out so he had to join up alone
He was dreaming of the ivory league since he was only three feet tall
And get the hell out of jersey and then he would never look back at all

And then your heroes say
That miles away
We lost another one that we sent with a gun
They're gonna miss him he was two weeks from twenty and there's still no shame
From the man to blame

Jimmy never had a reason to stay
Cos all the factories shut down
All he had was a line for his name
So he could sign away his right to be proud
He tried to kiss her on the way out the door,
She just put her little hand on his face
I don't understand why you're leaving, she said
But I hope your gonna ask me to wait

And then your heroes say
That miles away
We lost another one that we sent with a gun
His lady missed him, he was two weeks from twenty and there's still no shame
From the man to blame

Jimmy's mother went to Capitol Hill
So she could fill her heart up with joy
Maybe shake a few hands while she's there and tell them thank you sir for taking
my boy.

And then your heroes say
That miles away
We lost another one that we sent with a gun
His mama missed him he was two weeks from twenty and there's still no shame
From the man to blame
No there's still no shame
And we're all to blame
We're all to blame

1/12/06 12:36 pm - sweet....

Well, I just found out some really cool news, apparently a near by volcano, St Augustine, which is one of the three volcanos surrounding the anchorage area is showing signs of possibly errupting in the up coming days. They say side effects of this erruption could be ash fall on the city of anchorage and school might be shut down as well!

The Alaska Volcano Observatory, Read More
Pictures of the Volcano!
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